Tis the Season for Changin'

October 4, 2019

     🎢 The season's already changing! πŸŽΆ I love how a simple phrase can spark a lyric in my mind and what fantastic song! πŸŽΆI'm a BITTCCHHH, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother!🎢 Twelve year old Gina, singing Bitch at the top of her lungs, because bitch, duh! could have never realized how that song would apply to her life over and over again, throughout every season. 

     As women we dance through many seasons in our life. I am on the verge of crossing into another one. My babies are no longer babies anymore. My youngest will be four in a few short weeks! It's new and exciting, but also different and unknown! Which leads to some resistance and unnecessary bitch-mode outbursts. ***Bitch by Meredith Brooks comes on 90's on 9 at this very moment! I feel you Universe! πŸ’‹πŸ’‹πŸ’‹ Phew! I haven't even gotten to the good part of this story and the Universe is already reconfirming everything for me! πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

     Anyways back to the story. Several weeks ago I was​​ in a mood playing with my kids out in the yard. When I heard my husband say here bring these leaves to your Mama she thinks they are pretty. Any other time my heart would have skipped a beat and butterflies would have flooded my stomach. A small gesture! He was actually listening last week when I was showing the girls these beautiful bug eaten leaves!​ But tonight it hit me all wrong. As I looked down at the leaves in my hand, I didn't realize how much they actually represented me. Beautiful sure, but they are only a fragment of what they used to be. I felt defeated, like I had also fell from the top of a tree and lay in the yard. Who was I supposed to be, when I have allowed myself to be completely consumed by those around me??? πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­


    My poor husband! πŸŽΆYesterday I cried... I can understand how you'd be so confused... This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man... Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing πŸŽΆ


     I took my pouty ass inside and started supper for everyone. I had forgotten about my AmazonSmile package that was laying on the counter. A little book about kindness had popped up on my suggestions a couple days ago so I order it for the girls. Hopefully it would be the perfect way to end the day. After everyone had ate, we snuggled up in bed and started to read about a cute little lightening bug named Firenze, who was afraid to share her light. She got upset and took off into the woods to gather leaves for a skirt to hide it. In the woods she came across a beetle named Kirie. He was a wonderful artist with magnificent pinchers. I don't want to ruin the story because I know its one your children will love too, but in that moment the Universe smiled and winked at me πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜ I knew it had my back and I was moving in the direction I needed to be. It was time to quit hiding my light, move forward with my website and start dancing in this season. 

     Are you hiding your light? The seasons are changing, there's magic in the air and the Universe wants to be your Sugar Daddy!!!